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TheMusicalManiac
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Gonna Be on the Quiet Side a While

Posted by TheMusicalManiac - September 7th, 2024


I found out today someone in my close relative's family passed away of cancer at a young age. I didn't know the person very well, but I know the people close to them as they are my distant cousins by family and its been affecting all of us. My family and theirs are distraught due to this and as a result (of this loss and of many other things including politics and the upcoming US elections) my mental health has been struggling again and therefore huge music block...I don't know when the funeral will be but it will definitely be in the next few months and I don't know if I'm gonna have to go up north to attend.


For this reason I will be on the more quiet side of Newgrounds for now and will not be actively posting music. So if you don't see a lot of my FNF au tracks being posted since August or requests not being fulfilled in a timely and quality manner I apologize sincerely for the trouble...I will still be active here, I still love this place god dammit, and won't be leaving, but I will be less active on the forums and posting due to this until I find my chance to strike at the anvil of creative opportunity once again. Thanks as always for your support and please let me know if you need anything from me. <3


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I'm really sorry to hear about your loss. Your mental health is important and you shouldn't apologize for taking a break. Take all the time you need, and don't hesitate to ask if you need anything. I hope you're able to find some solace and peace of mind throughout this all.

Its okay. I just feel so bad since I've been on and off hiatus the last few years due to similar things and I feel bad for not being consistent with uploading music and stuff. It'll take me a bit but I'll be making more music as soon as I can. The autumn season's making me feel better a bit so there's that, but I wish I can be more consistent and more motivated to make music. Thanks for being around and supporting me as always pal <3 I appreciate you!!

Update - I'll be heading up North next week for two days for the wake and funeral. Most likely will be at a family gathering to celebrate the life of the deceased and reconcile with my cousins. Its gonna be a heavy one folks...I'm just hoping things go okay. I really don't like going to funerals but its for family and I don't want to be rude...I just don't do mentally well in those places...funeral homes and cemetaries...

@TheMusicalManiac I understand feeling bad about taking breaks, but you also need to remember it's for your mental health and your overall well-being, and that your friends and fans are still going to be here when you get back and we're all wishing the best for you! It's also nice to hear you're feeling a bit better with the season change, autumn is also just a really cool time of year lol. Motivation is really tricky, because it always hits when you aren't expecting it to, but I believe in you dude! Of course, you've been one of the most supportive friends and coolest people I've ever met on NG and I always appreciated it, so I'm happy to return the favor!!

Update two...had a mental breakdown today and I really don't want to go. I talked with my parents and told them I really would not rather go, but if I don't I would feel guilty not being there to support my family and my cousins. All I asked was for the cousins as well as them to not judge me if I sit in a corner playing on my Switch, because I just do not handle death well at all. Especially with the stress of the upcoming elections (please don't let the Orange Führer win PLEASE) and complete failure looking for work (I had an interview but idk if I'm getting the job in retail)...I hope things go easier and smoother soon.